Kat’s Campus Journal
The love you take is equal to the love you make
With an ever-growing fear of mortality and my eventual demise (laugh not, ‘tis true! I spent my adolescent years desperately wishing I could become a vampire. And none of that Twilight crap. I’m talking the original queen of vampires: Anne Rice. ANYWAY.) I always wonder if I’ve made enough of an impression on people and places. I wonder, will I be remembered? Will I be missed? With the final days of my college years dwindling in number, I find myself looking around an institution that has changed over the past years as I have. I’ve had friends come and go, I’ve come and gone, and I wonder, will I be remembered by my professors? I hope so. I’d like to think I’m a noteworthy individual, not just a percentage for the school’s retention rate. I’m my own success story, not the school’s.
I’ve taken the education offered to me by Lewis and Clark, and made something more than just a diploma and improved knowledge. I’m a different person than I was when I started, I don’t know exactly how I’m different, but I’m improved, refined and truer to form. I’m closer to the ideal (but we all know that ideal is unobtainable, RIGHT KANT?!) I’m going to travel the world again, I’m going to TEACH. The education of young minds will be, in part, my responsibility. I don’t always see myself giving back to the community (I hear that phrase so often…) but this Fulbright will be me doing my part. And that’s a good feeling.
Graduation is 10 days and 18 hours away. This is the end of an era, kids. And I don’t just mean my era. It’s our era. We who started our LC journeys in the fall of 2008, those of us who stuck out all 4 years— we are the end of an era. You may not know it, but this school is changing. And not just little things here and there like meal plans and new dorms (though that thing is HUGE. It sticks out like a shiny new monster.) I’m not talking about print balances and big name bands at school-sponsored concerts (that was siiiiickk! Despite what the naysayers say!) I mean change that matters. Not offering beloved, impactful, cherished professors tenure despite overwhelming student approval; a growing emphasis on athletics and the assimilation of “athlete culture” into the LC norm— students at Lewis and Clark College ought to be students first and athletes second, not the other way around; emphasis on ratings, retention rates and donations: I did not go here because of what the Princeton Review told me, I came because being at the school on several visits spoke to me. More importantly, I didn’t STAY because of ratings. Why do we have to pander to the needs of students that leave, instead of harvest and cultivate the wants and needs of those who STAY? RIDDLE ME THAT ADMINISTRATION. LC is losing its identity. Its changing. Its losing what attracted me in the first place: small, very liberal, intellectual, global-minded students, professors that felt more like mentors and friends than employees…
Take it as you will, form your own opinion about this school, just know that old traditions are being replaced by new, an old breed of student is leaving the halls to fill with a new. Am I bitter? Slightly. I look back positively on my experience here, but already I’m filled with a nostalgia I can’t shake, a yearning for better times. Not because of graduation, but because of the “positive direction Lewis and Clark is heading” Jeff Feld-Gore. Positive? Does that mean what we had before was negative and undesirable? I disagree with you, Jeff. I disagree wholeheartedly.
Tune in next time for a less philosophical and pessimistic entry.
Well, I’ve done it. Come October 1st I’ll be teaching English in Graz, Austria for the 2012-13 school year. I was awarded a Fulbright! AHHHHH HOORAY! I’ve been counting down the days until I heard from the Commission, knowing it would come sometime in April. The e-mail arrived Friday morning, and was the first thing I checked that day.
Dear Ms. Heinrichs,
I am pleased to inform you that the Austrian Ministry of Education, Arts and Culture (BMUKK) has notified the Austrian-American Educational Commission (AAEC) that you are a candidate for a U.S. English language teaching assistantship for the 2012-2013 academic year.
The best e-mail yet. I didn’t realize how much I wanted this position until I had it. I found myself beaming, walking to school with near tears in my eyes as I thought about my future. That’s the thing: now I have a future. I don’t have to fumble my way through answering “What will you do once you graduate?” I know what I’ll do now, I’m going to teach English for K-12. (That’s right, Kindergartners…) To anyone that doubted my German degree, IN YOUR FACE.
There is so much to do before I start (sending letters, contacting my schools, applying for residency, looking for an apartment…) but it’s so exciting. Every time I think about what’s ahead of me I smile, or squeal, and feel so…hopeful. Today in class a friend congratulated me, and as most of the class was assembled, someone asked what for. I told them the news and received a hearty round of applause, joined with well-meaning congratulations. I’m not one to be short on words, but I could only smile stupidly, mumble thanks and sit in my chair, continuing to beam. I’m happy. Really happy.
SO HAPPY OKAY?!
I’m even in the news! Well, LC news.. I answered some questions for this article. I also rambled on about a few other things not mentioned so here’s my full questionaire:
1. Can you describe your Fulbright award, where you will be traveling, and what you’ll be doing while you’re there? (I know sometimes placement isn’t decided until later, so if that’s the case, feel free to be general here.)
I’ve been placed to teach English in Graz, Austria for K-12. Not
only will I be facilitating an intercultural dialogue between students
and myself, I’ll also be furthering my own personal growth with the
German language. German is my passion, and I’ll be living “the
dream” for at least a year.
2. What drew you to studying a foreign language? What excites you about the idea of teaching English in the country you have been placed?
Language thrills me. My sophomore year at LC I found myself
discovering similarities between German and Spanish, delighted
with every cognate I came across. I knew then that languages
were for me. With each new language I study (German, Spanish,
Norwegian…) I find a new voice. I find new ways to hear, think,
express and ultimately create. Language is creation; it’s art to me.
Teaching in Austria will let me look through another lens of
Germanic culture. I’ll get to use the language I love, while at the
same time be challenged by something new. The dialects alone
could keep me busy for months! Also, I hope to maybe instill the
same love of language learning in some kid in a country thousands
of miles from where I call home. Globalization can be a very cool
3. Have you participated in any study abroad trips during your time at Lewis & Clark? If so, what was that experience like?
I studied in Munich, Germany for a year and grew
academically and personally. I had the time of my life (no, really!) I
discovered what I love there, which is language. I was given
independence and simultaneously found somewhere I felt I
4. How do you think your Lewis & Clark education has contributed to you seeing yourself as a citizen in a global community?
Part of the lure of LC was the emphasis on study abroad: I liked
that. I want everyone to travel to experience the world, not just see
it. I found a second home abroad, one that I am overjoyed to be
returning to again.
5. What are your plans for the future, and how do you think your Fulbright experience will figure in those plans (graduate school, travel, future careers, etc?)
I don’t have a career in mind. Not yet. I only know that this Fulbright
opportunity is bringing me back to Europe, giving me the chance
to improve and refine my German, and hopefully set me up to be
a permanent ex-pat. That’s all I want. Maybe I’ll fall in love with
teaching, maybe I’ll fall in love with Graz. I don’t know where I’ll
end up a year or more from now, but I’m certain Fulbright will have
something to do with it.
6. Any advice to share with other Lewis & Clark students applying for
similar awards in the future?
I didn’t realize how much I truly wanted this opportunity until I
read the acceptance email. If you think, just maybe, Fulbright is
something you want to strive for, do it. Don’t let the fear of the
unknown ever hold you back.
My home to be!
That’s all for now. I have a mini-mountain of work to attend to. 25 days left until graduation!
Sometimes you come across a website that just gets you y’know? I’ve found several myself but, here’s a webcomic (I use that term loosely) that makes me giggle as well as ponder the deeper meanings of life. (…Not really, no)
ENJOY. (I have an hour to kill between classes and lunch so, this is how I kill it. STAB STAB INTERNET LAUGHTER.)
From the mind of Natalie Dee:
THE VERY NEXT DAY.
I don’t actually know that song but, it’s always in my head. And I think of cats and myself. Wheeee!
I made a video. HERE YOU GO:
FOREWARNING: My video thingy weirded out a few times, hence some awkward editing jumps. oh well! ENJOY MY LITTLE CABBAGES!
Back to the grind, compadres!
I just came across this. This…this hurts my heart in so many ways.
The fight over Bully continues, with the National Association of Theatre Owners now making its own threats. News came out last week that the MPAA upheld its R-rating for The Weinstein Company’s Tribeca 2011 doc about school bullying and since then the Weinstein Co has considered releasing the doc unrated and even to boycott the MPAA altogether, a move could have implications for its future releases. If TWC indeed goes ahead with releasing the film unrated, NATO said today in a letter to Weinstein boss Harvey Weinstein that it will urge members to consider the Lee Hirsch-directed film an NC-17 movie. In the letter (see below), NATO president and CEO John Fithian said he would “have no choice but to encourage my theater owner members to treat unrated movies from The Weinstein Company in the same manner as they treat unrated movies from anyone else. In most cases, that means enforcement as though the movies were rated NC-17 — where no one under the age of 18 can be admitted even with accompanying parents or guardians.”
TWC said Tuesday in a statement its sole purpose for releasing the film is “educating children and highlighting how bullying has become a national crisis.” It added that Weinstein principals Harvey and his brother Bob were father to four children and see this as a “personal matter and one deserving its due respect from the MPAA and NATO.”
Meanwhile, a Michigan high school student began petition urging the MPAA to give Bully a PG-13, which would make it more accessible to middle school and high school students. As of Tuesday afternoon, it had 94,000 signatures.
Here’s the NATO letter to Harvey Weinstein:
The National Association of Theatre Owners partners with the MPAA in the rules and operations of the Classification and Ratings Administration. Exhibition representatives participated yesterday in the appeal of “Bully.” As you know, the appeals board voted to uphold the ratings board’s decision that the prevalence of harsh language in “Bully” warranted an “R” rating. In response, you released a statement criticizing the decision, and threatening to remove your company’s movies from the ratings process.
As the father of a nine-year-old child, I am personally grateful that TWC has addressed the important issue of bullying in such a powerful documentary. The filmmaker and especially the brave young people who participated in this project deserve our attention and respect. Nonetheless, I believe that your public response to the decision of the appeals board is unwise.
Surveys of America’s parents reflect their very strong concern with the use of harsh language in movies. The vast majority of parents surveyed have indicated that the type of language used in “Bully” should receive an automatic “R” rating. You ask us to ignore the preferences of America’s parents and our own ratings rules because of the merit of this movie. Yet were the MPAA and NATO to waive the ratings rules whenever we believed that a particular movie had merit, or was somehow more important than other movies, we would no longer be neutral parties applying consistent standards, but rather censors of content based on personal mores.
You recently released the award-winning movie “King’s Speech” and must know the language rules very well. You should not have been surprised at the rating for “Bully.”
I have nothing but tremendous respect for you and the work of TWC. Our industry is so much the better for your involvement. But if you decide to withdraw your support and participation in the rating system, and begin to release movies without ratings, I will have no choice but to encourage my theater owner members to treat unrated movies from The Weinstein Company in the same manner as they treat unrated movies from anyone else.
In most cases, that means enforcement as though the movies were rated NC-17 – where no one under the age of 18 can be admitted even with accompanying parents or guardians.
Thank you for your consideration of these thoughts. And the best of luck to you on Sunday.
President & CEO
This is ridiculous. This movie needs to be viewed by as many people as possible. Its a very real problem
I’ve been behind the times. I am sorry. CAN YOU EVER FORGIVE ME?! I’m behind about 3 entries, but I already warned you I’m suffering from apathetic tendencies so, this should come as no surprise. HOWEVER, I am sorry and love every reader I have ever. EVER. So, with that in mind, I’ll make a video this week ON TOP OF THIS POST YEAH!
I think I just heard a chorus of cheering somewhere off in the distance. Dang, I’m smooth.
So vat is new wiv me, you ask? (I’m going to pretend you had the courtesy to ask.)
Two weekend ago my dearest chumly wumly from home, who goes to OSU, came for the weekend for funtimes and food. There was so much food involved! And sports ….But, let’s focus on the food. We had mountains of Lebanese at Nicholas’, mimosa-filled brunch at 23rd and Hoyt, delicious fancy tea and mega-chocolate dessert at Papa Haydn, Boba at Tea Chai Té, and homemade brownies. SUCH A GOOD WEEKEND FEAST.
I was sad to see my paleroo leave but she’ll be in a better place soon…CHINA! Yeah, she’s off to save the sea turtles for four month. Some people have it made.
That following Wednesday, in the depths of senior despair, my fellow Munich veteran and I decided to impromptu-ly go to the beach! We went to Canon Beach. On the way there was still snow on the ground…Weird. Afterward we were starving because sunshine makes you hungry. We’d seen a giant roadside restaurant and decided to venture within, craving down-home things. …We got them. I’ve never before seen so much food for two on one table, but somehow he managed. I’ve also never had a bib put on me in public past the age of 3….It was an oddly humbling and exhilarating moment in my short 21 years….
Clearly, we’re not all vegetarians…
This beach trip gave me the strength I needed to take a midterm (gross) and ead Walter Benjamin (double gross). This past weekend was spent canoodling with my beaux, watching The Muppets on campus (JIM PARSONS HAVE MY CHILDREN! ..because I don’t personally want to have them…) eating pizza, watching Adventure Time, playing in the graveyard by my house (yep.) and then…MUSIC.
On Saturday I went to two concerts: one was a lovely flamenco-jazz show at the Brasserie Montmartre, Not only was the band really lovely, the happy hour deals were trés bon! …And that is the extent of my French. I’d love to go back sometime soon. No cover, good tunes, MUNICH BEER and tasty French delights? I’m so down.
Afterward a friend and I continued hanging out and readied ourselves for GOGOL BORDELLO. When they started playing, my heard melted and I danced, and danced, and danced until I could dance no more! No really. I sprained my ankle a little bit :/ and due to LC’s pension for moshing, I was sucked in, nearly trampled and glassesless. Sigh. I avoided a hoofy death but, alas, my glasses did not make it out alive. Luckily I have a backup pair, though.
Sunday was spent recuperating and lounging, and of course reminiscing on the wonderful evening I’d just had. Everyone should listen to more gypsy punk. GYPSY PUNK I SAY!
Until next time, when I hopefully have a witty vid for y’all.
MAKE GOOD CHOICES.